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Monday, April 16, 2012

The Child that is Me


In January 2012, I found and joined the website  www.livelawofattraction.com , and since that time, I follow very closely the newsletters, tips and blog posts of Linda Armstrong "Thought Empowerment Coach". 
As a response to one of my comments on the blog, I received a very nice reply ...

"I do a series of meditations that put you in touch with your Future Self and also go back and heal your inner child. Let me know if you might be interested in doing this. I would give you the first session as a FREE session. I offer anyone who wants one a free session."

Although I was feeling guilty for having a free session when I know I can't possibly afford more, the appointment was arranged, and I was very excited since I have always believed in the power of my thoughts, without knowing it has a name and it's called "the law of attraction".

I didn't succeed in getting away from home to use my father's empty, peaceful flat, and that stressed me a lot. My daughter kindly suggested that I  use her laptop in her room. At exactly 5:30 pm, I got the Skype call. I was ready.


It was such a beautiful journey. We decided to go to the top of the mountain and observe the world, my world from above. As I was walking in silence, breathing the fresh and clean air, listening to the beautiful sounds of Mother Earth, I saw HER. She had that severe look, the only look I know of her. Her eyes bore a pained expression . I was never before able to go towards her as I was sure she hated me. This time, I smiled at her, walked towards her, didn't say a word, and took her with me right to the top. I sat on the ground, she sat on my lap, my arms around her shoulders, as I tried to explain.....

Much later, I shared the wonderful details of my trip with my friend Pat ... as I was talking, she wrote the following poem into the message slot, which I share with you here ...


I met a face, a special face
On my computer screen
She wore a special smile
Her aura emerald green
She helped me meditate that day...
Led me down special paths ... ...
She brought me peace, a special peace
While in my heart I laughed
At the end, she said to me ... "now it's ok to cry"
I sat there and I smiled at her
While my eyes stayed dry

She said "you know, it's time to cry
Let all those blocked tears flow
It's time to let your pain right out
It's ok now, you know"
The while, I sat and smiled at her,
Her face, it crumpled up
As SHE began to shed those tears
Which I held. bottled up ...
She wept and sobbed, she cried for me
She washed my heart quite clean
While I just sat and watched her face
On my computer screen.

PS ...
One day, I hope, I'll sit and weep
I'll let the dam walls crack ...
I, too, will let it all gush out
With no more holding back ...
But, just for now, she's helped me find
A peaceful, quiet place
Which came to me while I sat there,
As my tears rolled down her face.


Patricia Eastwood


Linda Armstrong gave me a great gift ... she gave me back to myself ... as well as that, she gave me the healing balm of those precious tears which I cannot shed for myself, yet. Thank you, Linda. Thank you from me and also from the child that is me.

42 comments:

  1. That is so beautiful. I am so glad that she reached out to you and did this.

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  2. Hi Nicole, That was beautiful. I'm so happy that I helped you connect once again to that child within you. I really enjoyed our session and I look forward to introducing you to your Future Self. You are a beautiful woman with so much to offer, and you will create a better life for yourself. I can already see you living it!

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    1. Thank you so much Linda!! It was a very beautiful experience!

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  3. What an amazing journey in just one session! And, Patricia's poem fits perfectly here.
    Beautiful and touching post, Nikki!
    Blessings to you!

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    1. I agree with you Martha! Patricia's poem is just great!

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  4. A very beautiful journey indeed. Glad you took it up.

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  5. Both aspects of the post are beautiful on their own. A journey is always worth capturing moments along the way.. it takes courage to make first steps.

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    1. I was anxious to be honest. As you said, first step is difficult :)

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  6. Wonderful post Nikky!

    I loved that poem and I am glad that Linda helped you to connect with your inner-self, which is so very important for all of us. That is a cute picture too of the little girl :)

    Thanks for sharing. :)

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    1. Thank you Harleena! I loved the poem too :)

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  7. Wonderful post Nikky! You are great at these journeys and please know that you can take neat any time. Your guides are hear to show you! Meet your future self as you as you would like! love you!

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    1. Jodi, I can never say enough how grateful I am to all what you have done to me, whether it is through your Blog, your Facebook page, private messages or the two great gifts you gave me. The session we had was fantastic, much more than what I've been dreaming of. You opened my eyes on so many things. Love you too.

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    1. I'm glad you loved it Stan! I'm sure you are having many beautiful journeys like this one. You're a lucky GUY!

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  9. Beautiful post Nikky! Great things are in store for you. I am sure of that.

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    1. Thank you Sandy. I am finally starting to see the Light :)

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  10. Nicky,
    What a precious poem.
    I had 2 therapists who took me through a year of so of Healing the Child Within work. It is very powerful stuff and doing that work is what put me on the path to wholeness. It can be scary, but that's okay. I'm very glad that you took advantage of the free session. Blessings to you.

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    1. Thank you Brenda!! The poem is great, and i need to read it many times a day :)
      I'm glad you had therapy, and I'm aware I need therapy as I have a lot to deal with, but it seems impossible for now.

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  11. Wonderful story and the poem really reached me.
    The best kind of friend is the empathetic kind :)

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    1. Thank you very much. A friend who listens, would always be empathetic i think :)

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  12. Nikki,
    lots of love flowing to you from Minnesota <3 Xxxxx

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  13. Nikky, it's sounds like such a cathartic experience. I'm so glad Linda was able to help you! Hugs to you, my dear!

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    1. Thank you Monica. I had two wonderful experiences with Jodi and Linda! I will never forget them!

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  14. Beautiful!! Glad someone had led you on that path of healing. One thing though - Nikky, you have to find the courage to do it yourself. It has to be you - you who was hurt and you who has to heal, completely, thoroughly and liberatingly.

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    1. You are absolutely right! God is sending me the right persons at the right time to help and guide me, but the big work will have to be mine. I am trying to do that, I want to. I don't want to give up, although there are days where I feel it's the only thing I can do.

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  15. I'm so glad you had that moment. It sounds like an incredible, healing journey.

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    1. Thank you Emily!
      It was incredible as it was the first time i managed to really feel a contact with that scared little girl !

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  16. This post touched me, Nikky. I could feel the pain and the relief and the opening up. Thank you for sharing your experience. I'm so glad you had it! The poem is beautiful, too.

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    1. The poem is perfect! I can't believe how Pat could write that within few seconds, just while I was telling her briefly about my experience! There is a lot of pain, but one day, it will all get better!

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  17. What a heart felt set of words, so brilliant. I am a lover of LOA. You made my day and touched me and that I thank you and the universe for.

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    1. Thank you very much Jackie for reading my Blog and for your nice comment :)
      I am now a big fan too of LOA. It's amazing. I'm so glad you liked my post!

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  18. I'm new to your blog but love it already. Thank you so much

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    1. Thank you SO much!!!I am a BIG fan of your page!

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  19. Nikky, I'm so glad you had that wonderful experience. And such a lovely poem!

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    1. Thank you Alison!! Great experience and great poem!

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  20. Love the poem, it's amazing, but love the story, too. Sounds like an amazing experience.

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  21. What a lovely post. The poem is so telling of what you experienced in those healing tears.

    May your inner child continue to heal you.

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    1. Thank you Myrna! I'm glad you liked it!

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